Happy Days

Today I have happier news to report than I have been of late. No whiny vagina post today, my friend! Unfortunately I cannot divulge the details because I made a promise (so this post may not make much sense), but I have had a spring in my step since I woke up this morning, regardless of the grey clouds and fat rain drops splashing on the windows. Maybe it's just sleep deprivation making me delusional (I'm going through another insomnia episode) but I'm pretty sure it's because I had my heart broken and then neatly mended last night. Good as new! As the gorgeous Marc Warren once said, "It's funny the things you think of with your shirt off..."*
I was having a bit of a rough night and Rachel suggested a hot shower and some hot chocolate to calm me down, but alas, I had no hot chocolate so I lit some candles and settled for a margarita and a bubble bath. Mmm... Anyway, I felt better almost instantly and had a bit of a think as I soaked and I realized something that should have been clear to me from the start: If I really want to know something, why don't I just ask? So I did. The results were unexpected but welcome. And I mean very welcome. So much so that I've been smiling non-stop all day. I didn't even let it bother me when Tracy insulted me. Again. (I don't think he means it, but for fuck's sake man, I will kill you)

Before I sign off, I'd like to take a moment to wish my daddy a very special, very happy Father's Day. I know he knows it already, but sometimes I forget to say thank you when I am grateful for the things he does for me and puts up with, and sometimes I forget to say "I love you" just because, but that doesn't make it any less true. I love my daddy. I couldn't have asked for anyone more patient, loving and kind in my life, especally with the shit I put him through. He really has given me all he could possibly give me, and then some, and I hope he knows how much I truly appreciate it.
And to my biological father, may he rest in peace: I'm sorry we never had the chance to meet, I hear some pretty cool things about you and I'm sure we would have gotten on well given the opportunity. I have a lot of questions I would have loved to ask you, and I hope you understood that I could never be mad at you for what you did in the past (even if I do think it was kind of shitty) because everything turned out for the best! You had your beautiful family and I have mine. I could almost thank you if it hadn't hurt my mother, but we're both over it now and very happy with the way everything turned out. RIP.
And finally, to all the fathers out there: Today is a day to celebrate all the love and happiness that you have brought to your family, so spend it with the ones you love. Happy Father's Day.
x

*Gold star to the first one to get that one ;)